I am so incredibly blessed to be out of my trafficking situation. So many girls never get out and never have the chance to live the life I’m living now. It’s a miracle and one that I will be forever thankful for. The “getting out” though is only the beginning of the healing process. At [...]
All posts for the month February, 2012
Screaming Now
Posted by 9to20 on February 29, 2012
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Screaming Then
I was sexually trafficked from the age of 9 until the age of 20. As a victim, you have no voice. If I could have had a platform with no risk, this is what I would have screamed aloud: Leave me alone! Just leave me alone! What did I ever do to you? Am I [...]
Posted by 9to20 on February 28, 2012
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Scar Stories
Coconut lime verbena… What a sucker for marketing I sometimes am. It doesn’t even really smell like coconut lime now that I think about it, but years ago I saved up my money and raced over to the mall to buy this particular body butter on sale. It reminded me of the beach and that [...]
Posted by 9to20 on February 27, 2012
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A Journal of Pity
I hate pity… I mean I REALLY HATE it. Compassion? Yes please. Sympathy? Sure. Pity? Hell no. It brings me humiliation and makes me feel worthless and weak. In reading back over some old journal entries I found the following, written a couple months after I left my trafficking situation: My friend said to [...]
Posted by 9to20 on February 22, 2012
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Well That Was a Bad Idea
Working on getting a few piles of paper clutter cleaned up this afternoon, I stumbled upon an entire folder of court documents. Packed into this manila security box are physical dictations and representations of all the worst abuse moments my body and soul have ever encountered. The stories listed there were like a Greek Siren… [...]
Posted by 9to20 on February 20, 2012
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Last of the “C” Word
(Part 1) (Part 2) Part 3 When involved in prostitution there are just certain places you assume you’re not welcome… 1) the police station – you’re breaking a law 2) a fancy hotel – they act like you leave a disease on every elevator button you push and 3) a church – after all you’re the [...]
Posted by 9to20 on February 17, 2012
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More of the “C” Word
(Part 1) Part 2 (Part 3) … Yesterday I started to tell you a bit of my experience with “the church.” (Read the post here.) As always, I want to share my heart, which includes the good, the bad and the ugly. As I mentioned before, in the end I was very wounded by some people [...]
Posted by 9to20 on February 16, 2012
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The “C” Word
Part 1 (Part 2) (Part 3) I don’t know what word’s more controversial… “C–t”, a vulger word for a part of a women’s anatomy, or the word “Church.” You poll a random group of people about what they think of when they think of church and you’ll most likely get a wide range of responses… [...]
Posted by 9to20 on February 15, 2012
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True Love
Happy Valentine’s Day everyone! I just had to write a brief post because I woke up today with the heaviest burden. Obviously, today is the day we focus on the mushy-gushy-ness of relationships… although this area isn’t my forte, I do try to pause and take a thankful moment for those I care about. Doing [...]
Posted by 9to20 on February 14, 2012
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The “F” Word
No, no, no, not that “F” word… the other one, “Family.” (Although I’m sure I could just as easily write an entire blog about the word F–k.) Reflecting on my posts, I’m realizing how often I speak about the topic of family. I suppose it’s just the particular healing season I’m in, but I can’t [...]
Posted by 9to20 on February 13, 2012
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